Inside Her Mind

Could I label it as self-training?

2010-12-08T12:39:00.000-08:00

I guess it kind of is, in a weird sort of way. I can only describe it as my mind keeping the rest of me from continuing how I've been acting lately.

Lately = the last four years.

Interestingly enough,it's working. Well sort of. Slowly but surely, hopefully I'll stop being such a wimp, grow some balls, lighten up a bit, and THEN grab this bull by it's motherfucking horns...! I can't wait 'til that say. Hopefully it's soon to come.
By the way, no, I don't really expect you to know what I'm talking about. Haha.

Anyways, as for now, job hunting! I'm going to different (not-so-glamorous, and I wish I could say I didn't care, :P) places after school to apply for work, wish me luck bitches. I'm going to need it. And to think, two years ago I though all it took to get a job was to be 16. HA! In my dreams..

Anyways, English class is waiting. Fingers crossed for job!

But dreamers are damned.

2010-11-18T07:07:00.001-08:00

I suppose I could label myself as a dreamer.
It's all I do, after all. Lay in my bed, sit at my desk, stare into nothing, and dream. Dream of being famous for a voice that I hardly have. Dream of passing courses with high marks when I'm really next to failing. Dream of being liked by people I know would love me if they gave me the chance... but instead, I dream of better days rather than putting them into effect.

I now understand why dreamers are damned. Because they(we?) sit alone, dwelling on our miserable problems and mistakes, and horrible luck(is there such a thing?), instead of focusing on making it happen, or at least trying to.

But the truth is, I'm so inwardly fragile that I don't want to take the chance to dedicate my time and effort into doing things that I already know I can't do, because UI know that when I fail, I will fall apart.

I'm not smart.. I've accepted it. I'm not strong... I've accepted it. I'm not popular... I've been forced to accept it. I can't change these things. I could try, but I'm not ready for defeat, as I know it will end with. So for now, instead of trying to reach for stars I can't even brush my fingertips on, I'll sit under the latter I fell from, accept the bad luck it brings, and hope for my self esteem to come back to me. Pray that I eventually make it somewhere in life. Dream that I'm only in a stage and I'll clean up sometime soon.

But then, dreamers are damned, are they not?

The only hope for me is you

2010-11-03T08:47:00.001-07:00

I think this might be the only new song from MCR that I like.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9xAzqKEYaCs

Metaphor stuff

2010-10-22T13:06:00.000-07:00

People remind me of flowers. No, I’m not on drugs... I’m just using metaphors. I’ve been pondering the idea of different people’s personalities matching certain floral qualities. Some people are common and typical, and are just like everyone else. Some of them might have their own distinct classification and take a while to open up to you, but when they do you find that it was worth the wait. Some are old and wilted, but are still beautiful in their own way. And then there are of course the bitter-sweet individuals who have enticing qualities that you can’t quite keep yourself away from. They lure you with their sweet scents and pretty appearance, and before you know it you’ve been sucked into a whirlwind of thorns. I can hardly describe the love-hate relationship that follows, but to say the least, you may have been better off not noticing that rose.

Mandy

2010-10-15T17:20:00.000-07:00

Introducing, my new Toshiba Windows 7 Starter. Her name’s Mandy. She makes it so easy for me to write about every interesting thought or idea, and that’s why I love her. So yeah I’m gonna be blogging a LOT more now than I used to. Yay. I’m in the mall right now, in the food court. I’ve been waiting like 20 minutes for some configuration bullshit to load and now that it’s finally working I only have 5% of my battery left, fml. Oh well, all I really wanted to do anyway is post this piece of info about how I’m going to be blogging left right and center from now on. Oh, and you might have noticed that I changed my link back to erection-in-your-direction. I’m back baby!

New kid

2010-09-07T09:14:00.000-07:00

Well, I never thought I'd have to put up with all this new kid shit. I didn't think it was even like they portray it to be in the movies. Apparently, I was wrong..

September

2010-09-03T08:01:00.000-07:00

The 9th month of the year. So many things happened at this time last year, a lot of shit that actually changed my life. I don't know if it actually has anything to do with the month, or if it's just that summer ends and new things start happening.

This summer went by so fast. It really was my best summer though.. yeah, I had a big wish that didn't come true, but I also had a lot of little ones that did. Hah and without those ones I think I would have commit suicide by now.

But anyways, on a less depressing topic, I'm trying to start getting my shit together. Not gonna promise anything, but I'll try to post my losses and gains as they come and go.
Fuck, I don't even know if anyone reads this anymore. But then again, this blog might just be more for me then anyone else.

18

2010-05-23T20:11:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday Tessie! I love you so much, I hope you had a fun time.. I know I did. It was great fun, it started with me and Laura subway-ing to her house to change. She gave me an awesome dress, and I love it. We finally got back (no subway rapes, thankfully) and forced all the other girls to wear dresses as well... we enforced the "no dress, no drinks" rule. Tess looked darling. I consumed waay too many brownies.. just throwing that in there. Anyways, after Andrew and Vicky kindly risked their lives trying to light the BBQ, we cooked up the food and started with our little party. It was super fun.. I miss all of you girls. It's too bad you couldn't be there when I was there Amy, we all missed you. Well, picture time.

M.I.A.?

2010-05-15T17:19:00.000-07:00

Well it seemed as if I'd gone missing in action. I haven't been blogging lately because I needed some time to be alone, figure myself out, and think of what I'm going to do with my life. LOL JK I was just being lazy. For like a month.

Soo let's see, what have I been doing for the past.. 4 months....?
I guess I've had a lot of accomplishments. I watched the most disgusting video in life, I've applied for a modeling agency, I've been drinking up to 12 cups of water a day (yes, it does make you have to pee ALL THE TIME), I've taken up jogging, and discovered a new band that I like. It's called Framing Hanley.

Ooh and I also watched The Butterfly Effect this morning. It's my new favorite movie.

Anyways I don't have much else to write but I promise to use my extra time to entertain you on this gay blog ;)

Oh, here's a picture of me doing something with my eyes that you wish you could do even though it's creepy.

Sushi fail

2010-04-01T19:29:00.000-07:00

So me and my younger sisters had the great idea to make shushi today.

We kind of failed :D

Picnic and blog

2010-03-10T17:05:00.000-08:00

Well I changed my blogs look. And everything else about it too haha. I'll explain later.

A few days ago, me and some friends went on a junk food picnic, to celebrate March! Yaaaahhhh! Well my converse got all muddy so that wasn't the best, but I conquered some frootloops which was definitely a plus, hehe. And to top it all off, I ate the frootloops pantless. Jealous? :D

State of Shock

2010-02-23T16:01:00.001-08:00

I'm totally obsessed with this song right now:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sj6f_HpMKVs

Feeeebbbrruuaarryy

2010-02-22T18:44:00.000-08:00

Maaan does that name drag out. February. So Valentine's day came and went, and was totally uneventful. Only to be expected... I'll probably be surprised if there's ever going to be a valentine's that I'll actually celebrate. Good thing there's a rebound party.. ahaha. A good time indeed to complain about sucky valentine days to my friends. (ssh they love it)

I miss you...

2010-01-21T19:09:00.000-08:00

15 things I've been missing for the past millions of months...

Jimi Smith

Old friends

Looking like a chink and being able to laugh about it

Staying out in a thunderstorm until the sun comes out

Laughing with Carmel

Laying in the grass

Just laying anywhere

Being a complete idiot and getting away with it

Marianne Mcken

Strategically egging unsuspecting vans

Friends who count their chickens before the're hatched

Beating DIllion in football

Paintballing

Hotel beds

Summertime, injuries or no injuries

:/

Jimi.

2010-01-13T15:00:00.001-08:00

So. I had the sudden realization that I never posted about Jimi's birthday. Horrible.
Haha so anyways I'm posting a late, late, laaaate birthday post.

.....

So happy late birthday love! I hope you had a good year as 15. Haha of course you did, you spent half of it talking to me. I love you so much.

I fail. But I try again.

2010-01-12T16:47:00.001-08:00

Haha that title sounded disturbingly family-like. But it kinda had a point. I haven't been blogging for the past few months... I could blame it on not having pictures to post, but that would be a crappy excuse. Okay well that is sort of the reason I haven't posted, but whatever haha. I'm going to start blogging more, I promise.

I usually have to be in a certain mood for it, or else anything I write just sounds stupid.

Well I've been wanting to randomly post the things that are going on in my head for a while, so I think I will. The stuff I'm about to write is me only being half serious, and typing stuff down before I think about it. Just saying.

If you told someone you were hearing voices in your head, and they told you to embrace it, would you? No. Bad idea. It's like using a wigi board when told not to. No, I don't beleive in those but it's just the general concept.

It's like when your four years old, and you see a candle. It's warm. It smells nice. It's pretty, and you want to touch it. A nearby adult sees you eyeing the flame and warns you not to touch it. You do it anyways. You cry. So you got to touch it. And look where the fuck it got you... Your now crying over your burnt finger that is, by the way, roughly the size of a baby carrot. It did some damage and having it held under cold water doesn't really help as much as the frantic adult is saying it's supposed to.

You have a sudden hatred for candles now. Who cares about the nice glow eminating from the flame, it's bad. It hurts you. It is definitely not your friend. In fact, you don't think it should stay there. What if someone else shares you experience? What if they too get burned and have to listen to some old person bitching at them about doing what they are told to?

No. No one should have to go through that...that sucks. So you decide it shouldn't stay there, smugly flickering as it does.

You blow it out.

It's over. You feel quite accomplished, if you do say so yourself. Take that, bitch.

Okay yeah so no one thinks like that when they are four, but whatever. You get it.

Or don't you?

So that was the majority of what was on my mind... yeah it probably didn't make sense to you but it meant something to me. Oh, and this isn't an afterthought, but I really, really, reallllly miss Jimi Smith. :(

Sn000www

2009-12-09T14:32:00.000-08:00

Ahhhh first snow. It's actually nice, because it was really warm today...I had fun :D. You would too if you woke up and looked out my window and saw this:

Ookaayyy fine it didn't look exactly like that, but my camera had no battery so I improvised. (I love you google.)

Well that's all I have to say about that, besides me posting all the pictures that we took at Amy's last weekend, they are so epic I can't wait. I'll also write about what we did, blah blah blah... well until then. :)

Ugh.

2009-11-22T18:59:00.001-08:00

Got lost in a mall, Missed my bus twice, Walked for an hour for no reason, Lied to cover my own ass, Found out I was being lied to, Stayed home while my friends were out having a good time, and my face is bleeding. Happy fucking Sunday everyone. :(

Pictures, yay.

2009-10-23T12:06:00.000-07:00

I woke up one morning and decided that I felt fresh and wanted to take some pictures. Ever happened to you? Haha didn't think so. Look:

:)

"Let's put on red lipstick and take bi photos!"

2009-10-21T11:33:00.001-07:00

Well, remember those pictures of me Nathalie and Fio that I never uploaded, yeaaahhh I finally got around to uploading them. Caution: WE LOOK HORRIBLE YOUR EYES MAY BURN OUT OF THEIR SOCKETS

Enjoy ;)

BOO

2009-10-18T18:14:00.000-07:00

Well...... Halloweens coming up.. And, there's still no pictures, I know. It's this stupid internet thing.

I hope it dies in a hole, if that's possible.

Birthday

2009-10-12T09:41:00.000-07:00

I'm fuckin 15 years ooolllldd........!!
Yay. I feel the same. Heheh.

I didn't have a party yesterday on my actual birthday but I think I'm gonna have one next weekend.

Hopefully.

A ton of things that I wanted to happen haven't been happening lately (photoshoot, sleepovers, parties, drunken orgys ect.) so I think it might take a lot of effort to make this one actually happen. I don't have any pictures of anything yet because there on my desktop which doesn't have internet right now, but when it gets fixed I'll post everything that I haven't in the last few weeks. Yeeeeaahhh. Anyways, I'm off. Happy thanksgiving everybody I hope you all get fattttt

:)

Shut up shut up shut up!!

2009-09-29T10:58:00.001-07:00

Okay, well, I wrote this. Kind of embarrassing, I've never posted any poetry before because it makes me feel faggy, but I don't have anything else to post so haha heeeeeere I go:

I'm trying to whisper but I'm starting to shout,
I'm trying to scream but no words will come out,
Throwing things never seems to help...
All of a sudden I've fallen down.

No ones here to save me from myself,
And the numb feeling in my knuckles really doesn't help.
Why does everything I touch turn to dust?
The stories not even over and I'm already crushed.

It's a constant war between me, you, and trust,
And nothing I do is ever good enough.
I bend over backwards just to try and make things better,
But all that that does is make my eyes wetter...

I might as well rip my heart in two,
Because one of these days it'll just be done by you.
If only you knew just how easy it is for me to fall in love,
But I try to hold it back because there's nothing worse then things breaking apart;
Like relationships, love, and mostly.. my heart.

Come back....

2009-09-15T17:46:00.000-07:00

Well. Summers officially over. Yeeeaaahhh okaaayyy I know what your thinking, some gay thoughts about how summer was already officially over on the 8th of september, blah blah blah, but no. Noooo. Well okay, maybe.. but I go through withdrawals OKAY! Yeha, and it sucks. But oh well.

So I guess I should talk about what I've been doing all summer, since I haven't really been writing about it. Come to think about it, I was grounded most of the summer, (don't ask), and basically all I did was hang out at the pool... well, I got a nice tan at least :D. But as for school, total time-eater... notice I said time EATER, not waster. Because technically it's not WASTING my time but it takes soo long just to stufy for a quiz. That I ended up getting a 66% on. But shh. So anyways I might be going to public school this year. Well most likely anyways. I hope so.. I'm excited.. :D.

So... besides that.. nothing else is really new. I know, exciting right? lol. Well now that I think about it I might go to Amy's next week and we'll do a modelling photoshoot.. in which case I'll be posting the outcome pics a.s.a.p.
So until then, goodnight to all the losers that actually read this! I love you :)

Laura's 15!

2009-08-27T16:23:00.000-07:00

Weellll, as much as I'd hate to admit that she's older then me, Laura hollingsworth--I mean, young-- just turned 15 today. I've never felt so young in my entire life, well maybe a few other times, actually....now that I think about it.. but still. There isn't gonna be anything happening for her today, but tomorrow I'm going to her house for a parteeeyy...! Well, if a bbq with family can pass as a party. I wouldn't really think so, but anyways we'll be going out to the movies and such and I'll be sure to post lots of pictures of it. So here's to years of fun, getting into shit, laughing at people, and so far and so on. Waay on.

Just because.

2009-08-01T16:58:00.000-07:00

Mariiiiiinnnnnnnneeeland

2009-07-29T15:16:00.000-07:00

So I guess it's my duty to write about going to Marineland. hahaha, "duty". Anyways, it was pretty ok... well except for the fact that everytime I went on a ride i thought about Laura and how much it sucked that she didn't go. :(
Siiiiigghh I had an alright time all in all though, laura enarson went (YAHH!) so I hung out with her all dya, and also this gabe fellow which I met that day too. I will now stop talking and post pictures.

flags?

I went on this thing!!

we're perfectly sane, I swear!

shoe shot. I'm the one in the cool-looking ones :P

gabe, jonny and laura...:

whaalleeee!

some more whales haha

this was on the way to the roller coaster, apparently they want you to watch out for robin hood and his band of merry men

laura, after all these years you STILL amaze me.

soo I didn't take that many good pictures, but there you go. marineland. :)

Happy Birthday, I guess....

2009-07-15T16:49:00.000-07:00

Ahehehehehee. Hannah's birthday was on the 11th, but she wasn't even home to celebrate it with us. tsk. Angelica made a big chocolate/vanilla/?? cake for her, but to her--I mean EVERYONES-- dismay she dropped it and it landed on the floor. But no it really did suck because as it turns out that cake was suuupperrr suupperr good. But it's ok because mom, ed and hannah picked up a ready-made one when they came back from....wherever they were.
I managed to take some pretty good pictures:

:)

Hi guys...

2009-07-03T16:38:00.000-07:00

Well hey. I haven't posted in a really looong time... sigh. I guess I've been too cool for school lately. hahaha JUST KIDDING, I hope. well. anyways. I'm at lack of words, so here's a random picture for you to look at:

Okay, well. not much has been happening, (obviously, or else I would have posted about it), but I might as well give the general idea of what I've been doing the past....oh I dunno...month? Mmkay, well the pool opened June 27th, so I've been swimming for a few hours every day. I knocked a piece of my tooth out a few days ago, and FINALLY got it fixed day before yesterday morning. lol, talk about a delayed reaction.. :P I put a before pic up ip on facebook, but no after pic because well I'm not exactly in favor of how it looks now. :D

Otay. what else.. Oh yah. I'm going to Montreal for a few days to see my big brother and sisters, so I'll post some pics and stuff when I get back. I'm leaving tomorrow morning. Also, I'm dyeing my hair tonight. yaaaaahh! I'll take some vain pictures mabeh.

Annyyywayys just trying to keep up with mah blog, but I have lunch to eat and places to go so, until next time.... :)

good'en-est blog in the whole fucking world

2009-06-18T10:08:00.000-07:00

http://weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee-dah.blogspot.com

I don't really know how many "e's" are actually in it... i just might count someday!

(oh, btw that's Laura's blog :D:D)

see? I can be deep..

2009-06-09T18:53:00.000-07:00

Friendships;
They’re rare, hold on to them, blah blah blaah.
Or, at least that’s what I used to think. Recently I had a fight with this best friend of mine, and it generally sucked. It was about this guy who I didn’t like all that much anyway, and well it almost ruined our whole fucking friendship. Bad, bad BAD mistake. One I don’t think I’ll ever make again. Or at least I’ll try not to, you know… anything can happen under the influence of mary-joo-anna(yes, I fully know how to spell that, I wrote it the way I pronounce it at times.)….
But that’s not the point! What I’m saying—or rather trying to say—is that no guy, incident, phone call, gossip or whatever should mess a good friendship up between two people. Whether it’s a guy and a girl, two guys, two girls or whatever, you should really value the fact that you’re friends. F.R.I.E.N.D.S. And don’t let anything fuck up your bond. Never (ever EVER) seize to think before you do things. Ever. It seriously almost screwed things up for good this time, and it was too close of a call for comfort. Jeez, I was so confused I couldn’t tell what I was feeling… Anger? Yes, that’s a definite. Sadness or depression? Nah, depressions too strong of a word. Guilt? Yes, and lots of it. Revulsion? Only at myself. But, once again, I’ve trailed off and all I want to say is VALUE YOUR FRIENDSHIP.

Foot

2009-05-29T19:14:00.000-07:00

So. there was a blackout day before yesterday, and I fell down some stairs. yaaayyyy...
(notice the 'yay' was dripping with sarcasm.)
so some of you probably saw my status on facebook and already know this stuff, but I'll just run you through it. I went to the doctors about an hour after it happened, and got an X-ray the day after. Only thing that's broken is tendons, apparently. So I'll be in crutches for the next 7 days... :(

surprise!!

2009-05-26T10:43:00.001-07:00

What happens in kleinburg....

2009-05-13T11:43:00.000-07:00

I’m posting, yay! Yeeeeah I haven’t posted in like a month or something, cause that’s just how boring my life has been. But hopefully since summer’s coming up I’ll be writing about ton’s of random stuff. Keep you’re fingers crossed. Or not.

Anyway. I went to Laura’s house last weekend. Super fun, I love their food hahaha.And I’ve never watched that many youtube clips in three days in my life, heh heh. Oh, and we took lots and lots of pictures. We made brownies, (you do not want to know how those we’re eaten, believe me) andd watched a few American pies(one of which laura finished without me, the bitch), and we almost got poisoned ivy by prancing around in the forest in miniskirts! What a great weekend!................. yes? no? anyway, I’ll just post some pictures of our great adventures and stuff:

First night…. We stayed up ‘till five doing…. Fun stuff :D:

Do. We. Creep…….you out?

Next morning. Hahahahaha

we woke up thinking “dude what happened last night?”. We sort of figured it all out by reading our chat archives, but never really got why or how Oli ended up on the bedroom floor..

So like I said before, we went out into the forest to take pictures.. and… well here they are:

Well. I feel quite accomplished now :)

Ooh, and I almoct forgot! We kipped on a camp bed!

siiiigh.

2009-05-05T15:03:00.000-07:00

Just some pictures.. er, 'photography' hahah

posting about nothing

2009-04-26T18:02:00.000-07:00

okaay so I haven't been posting as much or at all, cause there's nothing to post about. Well there was this one BBQ thing, but that got rained on and it wasn't that exciting. fun, yeah, but not that worth posting about. blaaahhh that's my freakin dilemma.

why me?

2009-04-19T16:41:00.001-07:00

Hey, you know that saying 'some people are born stupid'? well, if it wasn't a saying before it is now. yeah. I'm one of those people.

one day, sue was thinking "oh, I look like an emo boy. maybe I should cut my bangs."
soo she grabbed some scissors and started layering her hair in the front, and then had this thought, "why don't I just cut it all at the same time, it'll take less effort.."

so she chopped it all off and now looks really really gross, like an asian gone wrong.
I'd put up a picture for everyone to laugh at, but I'm avoiding those for the time being..

past days

2009-04-18T13:38:00.000-07:00

eghm, I haven't written anything in like a week.
yeeeaah. I've just been a little busy--ah, my lunch is ready--that's all. but I
guess I'll just post about the last couple of days..

okay so marianne came back on the 6th(correct me if
I'm wrong) and we went to go visit her. we were SUPPOSED
to go to the park with the kids but we decided that Coffee
Time would be the better choice, so we went for a 'walk'.

I can't believe the people there still remembered us!
They gave us free pasteries. woohoo.

heres carmel and me.. she looks great, but sue looks
similar to mrs. cow.

I won't put up the pictures of hannah and marianne, because
I know for a fact that marianne would pummel me next time.
aheh

okay so what happened next... oh yeah, it got really warm and so
I went to the park. I was forced to bring my little sisters... blaah
anyways, I remembered I had to hitchhike to california
to kill someone, so off I went to try to get a ride. christine
came with me, and we were both rejected counless times.
hmph. we didn't give up soon though, which turned out to
be a stupid mistake...

and.....

we could have been..um...charged maybe? I dunno.

aaand I've been playing soccer lately. with a bunch
of people, only like two of whom I know. I made a big
fool of myself yesterday, I won't say exactly what I did
but it was so wigger and I still want to die in a hole
next time I see kaitlyn. I'm not sure I spelt her name right...

anyways, I'll post again next time I fall out of a
tree or something. :)

ha.ha.

2009-04-13T20:00:00.001-07:00

Hit lists.... you just might be on this one.

2009-04-10T14:24:00.000-07:00

Okay soo... we made this death list. Randy and I. If you're on it, yeah, we're gonna kill you. And if you're hot and your on it, then raping might be appropriate.

:

1#. Ed, tied with Cam.
2#. Benji Sutton.
3#. Steve Rhymes.
4#. Raymond Davis
5#. Dante Noble
6#. Ivan ???
7#. Crystal Davis
8#. Willy Greeneyes
9#. David Edson
10#. All cops..

and two more still pending are Jimi Smith and Samuel Pair. :)

Easter.

2009-04-10T11:45:00.000-07:00

Well it's good friday today. My parents took me and angelica
to this random park... I got some pictures. It really would
have been funner if it wasn't so... or if..... or maybe..
ugh. I forgot what I was gonna say. hahah okay well heres
the pictures, and... happy easter I guess.

:):)

black, white and colors

2009-04-08T11:23:00.000-07:00

TISS! :)

fridayy

2009-04-08T09:49:00.000-07:00

sooo... barbeque on friday.. good stuff. It'l be
so cool, and weird, seeing Marigold again. last time I
saw her I was 7, and moving into the house she was
moving out of. I remember losing in an art contest to
her, and me and hannah laughing uncontrolably for no
apparent reason, and phil calling me coleslaw. yep. :)

I must be emo

2009-04-03T16:23:00.000-07:00

April fools

2009-04-03T15:54:00.000-07:00

so, april fools day was a couple of days ago. I DIDN'T TRICK A SINGLE PERSON!
grrrr.. even though christine managed to get me--so good-- like 4 times. ya fine, call me gullible then. I don't care.

I'm so happy its getting warmer... well not right now, it's raining, but still.. I was out in a t-shirt yesterday. hurrayy
I think I got a little too uh feisty though... nearly killed sylvia, as you can see:

but anyways, as soon as it stops raining and flowers come out of no where, we're taking a bunch of pictures and I'll be sure to post. tadaa :)

oh oh, look what I can do

retarded, right!?

Just my luck..

2009-03-31T15:56:00.000-07:00

last night I watched a movie. some random one with Jennifer Aniston, blah blah.... anyways, i was brushing my teeth when the weirdest thing happened.. I started writing blog posts in my head. the best freakin posts I've ever thought of. seriously, they were brilliant. I'm still not sure what all the subjects were, bt I just remember them being little insignificant ones and I managed to make something cool and yeah, interesting out of them. anyways, I was really happy with myself when I went to bed. I was gonna write them all down next day. awesome.

next morning I woke up, and I couldn't remember a bloody thing.

:)

Best song ever, he's hott!

2009-03-31T11:07:00.000-07:00

damn hackers!

2009-03-29T12:16:00.001-07:00

aaaaah don't you just hate it when someone--or something-- starts spamming you're email? yeah, it's happened to the best of us. It's okay though, I guess.. considering it was only my hotmail.. sigh. but then it brings me to the dilemma of making up a new one. yuck. I was trying to think of a good one for a whole night. The only thing that stuck to me though was the phrase "I'm the bomb.com"
yep. you guessed it.
go ahead! add me to you're list of nerds.. haha
:)

lol

2009-03-29T12:09:00.000-07:00

posting

2009-03-27T17:39:00.000-07:00

You know, I've thought about it a little bit and I realize my blog is kinda a failer. hahahahaha.
I started it because I never ave anything to do, but recently I've noticed... i don't really have time
to write posts. long ones, at least. It could be just the lack of THINGS to post about, yeah, but
if I actually was good at blogging I'd always have lots of interesting post up and stuff. so I mayby I should start doing that. Just writing about random little subjects if there's nothing big and fun to write about. chyeah, I can see it now. I might as well just start wearing glasses and join a chess
club. not following me? haha you're not supposed to be. okaayyy I plan to make this one of the longest(if not THE longest) posts without pictures yet. okay, lets start a first attempt;

You guys, It's SPRING! growwll, finally! not that's its really warm yet and all that, but seriously,
it's all down hill from here. not including the part where I might have to be going fundraising
forever in order to go to texas this summer, of course. mehh. siiigh... the sunnn.. I've missed it.
honestly, I love winter, but i'd love it alot more if it was two months shorter. grr. new subject, this is getting boring.... ............ okay I'm totally blank. totally totally.... ooh gross, I sound like a barbie trying to complement someone. GREAT BLOG POST, SUE!

la la lalala lala la la
Nope, haven't given up yet. this WILL be my longest post. hahahahahaha, okay a thought popped into my head. who gives a fuck how long a post is? as long as it's interesting. gee I think I failed. I might at well just end this lamely. put you out of your misery.. sorry, that's the emo in me talking. whatever, don't inwardly roll your eyes, everyone has emo in them. admit it, everyone has emo sides. anyways, i'll stop writing nonsense down now ahahah ookay. :)

happy late late late late late....

2009-03-26T17:12:00.000-07:00

well, happy birthday sylvia! that sounded lame. anyway,
my little sisters 12th birthday was on march 14th. haha
yeah, you don't have to tell me that I'm a LOT late. anyways,
I haven't yet got my hands on any of the pictures taken, so basically,
just happy 12th sylve!
PLAH! :)

Sushi!

2009-03-20T14:30:00.000-07:00

Went to amy's a few days ago. fun fun, I really like her house and area.
She lives about a 15 minute walk from Center Point mall, so me, amy and hannah went there. haha, DUH.
I happened to have enough to pitch in for sushi, though--well, 67 cents to be exact--so we got a nice pack of
california roll. theres no pictures to show for it, we were too busy eating everything. haha. yeah, that's right.

I can't wait till next time. amy's gonna take some photos with her snazzy camera. right? :)

jealous?

2009-03-13T20:07:00.001-07:00

fun fun

2009-03-12T14:55:00.000-07:00

Family birthday party: it was okay... they could have used better music. It's okay, laura enarson and I still found the retarded music good enough to dance like idiots too. hahahaha, I hope we didn't hurt anyone... no, I take that back. I hope the people we DID hurt are okay.
I'm glad we stayed till the very end, though. teeny and laura too.. it would have really sucked if they had to leave. how did your ride home go, by the way? no rapes? okay cheers! heh heh

SOMEONE (ahem. carmellllll) turned an angry mexican loose on me.

by the way, thats a bad thing when you can't even walk properly..

I hope they found hannah's shoes in the bathrooms.. she's gonna KILL me. not that the damn shoes already didn't, but you know.

there was lots of really...special.. conversations too. I'm not sure what laura's dad thinks of me now that he heard my little blonde moment.

*laura and sue waiting in random line for drinks*

laura: aah, i'm so hungry.. all I ate today was like oatmeal and an apple or something..

sue: yeah I know, me too.. all I ate was like..... um.. actually, you know, unlike you, I don't keep track of everything I put in my mouth and swallow!

laura: *eyes wide*

sue: .....umm....

heh heh CHYEAH I bet you can imagine what happened after that.. I'm just seriously hoping no one else heard it.... eek
So anyways, i'll just post some pictures of everyone who would let me go all paparazzi on them.

A little weird... but whatever, BOOBAGE!

cuuuute

yeah, I was right... I was totally the tallest girl there.

no comment here

aliens? no laura, I think that's just the camera... they use those to make sure we're not a jewish suicidal group about to drink the koolaid!

WHAT? it looked good when you did it

hehehe

"don't post this anywhere" she said. hahahahhaha yeah, right.

well, this post has been the randomest thing since like.... haha my engagement! i'll be posting again soonish.. love you all :)

la la freakin la

2009-03-07T16:06:00.000-08:00

well, I haven't posted anything interesting for weeks. I'm trying to upload a video on youtube, (unsuccessfully so far), so I'll put that on when I finally get it. ooh, also, the party things coming up in 3 days so i'll post about that with tons of pictures and stuff. yay. I think this post is done. :)

This video's the shit

2009-02-20T19:38:00.000-08:00

click

2009-02-19T13:15:00.000-08:00

soo... I felt like editing last night so i came up with some pictures i took a while back and edited the hell out of them. check em out:

:)

hufqkejfbqejf

2009-02-13T15:46:00.000-08:00

I will not come home drunk or high.
I will not come home drunk or high.
I will not come hom drugged or high.
I will nt cub homm dunk or hig.
i willmy't come hoooooome . drunk or drugges.
i wont be drunk high or homme.
i willn't cum hum drunnk high ort.

Five-ways=the vision

2009-02-10T12:22:00.000-08:00

I just want to say that Gerard Way IS hot, and is NOT suicidal. Glad I cleared that up for you guys.. what was I gonna write about again.. shit.. oh yeah. phones are such amazing things. You can talk to so many people at a time that it's impossible to actually hear yourself think... much less put what your trying to say into words louder then everybody else's. Last night I had a five-way call with two other girls and two guys. For every six sentences a girl would say, a guy would say one. It was actually pretty amusing. I hardly remember what we talked about, actually, besides when laura graced us with her lovely voice when she sang Jizz In My Pants. I hope mike doesn't still think I'm knocked up, hahahah. basically, it was a mission just to get a few words in. luckily enough, people gradually trickled out of the conversation. First mike went(we missed you, lol), then laura(nothing special, I talk to you everyday), thennn I don't know what happened because I was the next to leave. Anyways, all to say is... call me again tonight? mehh, :)

that time we went crazy

2009-02-02T14:08:00.001-08:00

Oh Laura. I suck. I miss you already. In fact, I think your my new obsession. sorry Jimi. yahahaha
I can't beleive they miss-informed us about you staying another night. We had they party food and everything
It's okay though. That stuff worked pretty well as comfort food.. :P
But still, everything is all shitty now. As soon as you left I realized how tired I was. It must have been all the Mensterbating we were doing earlier. I took this dreary walk in the cold after you left, and came home to find my fly was open the entire time... way to attract, right?

hahaha I just realized this is sounding like a freaking letter to you.. a gloomy one at that. I bet some poor unsuspecting person's gonna read this and ask him/herself, 'wth?'

Yep.

Oh yes, I so enjoyed our romping adventure last night. erhm, typo. hehe lets rephrase that... I was thinking about the daring trip we took last night to the vending machines. Demanding a quarter from the menacing security guard is a really cool saturday-night passtime, no? :P Also, I give us each 10 fat credit points for our matchingness today. I say we pulled it off quite well:

this is not how it looks :D :D
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You know, as long as I'm handing out credit points, I should award us both some more for our hit new song. Hehehehehe.
(sue whispers: "they never saw it coming!")

I also think I'm getting better at date-raping. I've grown pretty used to using it as a weapon..
"STAND BACK! I CAN DATE RAPE!"

Poor, poor laura. I love you, don't worry. It's the you still loving me part I'm worried about.
I can't wait untill Feb 25th.. it's the only thing to look forward to right now. Oh, also, when are we going to exspose Benji?
We forgot to talk about that... we must have been too busy drowning me in the bathtub. Next time you come here, we'll get more
vanilla cappuccinos, more un-suspecting Price Chopper workers, more chains for our skinny jeans, more... more..... how about more braincells for sue?

hehe. I just re-read this whole thing, and decided to say this post is dedicated to laura young. one night, yeh and one more time, thanks for the memoriesssss... ugh, fallout boy really really sucks. Never again laura, never again.

(call me)

:)

Happy Birthday Jo

2009-01-28T15:36:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Jo

Just wanna say happy birthday to my big sister Joanna,
turning 19 (WOW :P) hehe.
I hope this year you can have your cake and eat it too. :)
love you lots and tons and everything, and since your 19 now,
go crazy at the clubs! *wink*.

P.S. I made you a cake!

A/Q.

2009-01-26T13:14:00.000-08:00

Quiz I found on tickle (I filled in my own answers :) )

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Name?-- sue

Full name?-- *flinch*, Susanne Claire Hollingsworth.

Hair color?-- brown, sometimes reddish.

Eye color?-- hazel, apparently

Height?-- I'm not sure. 5 foot something..

Weight?-- 120 pounds, last time I checked.

Shoe size?-- ....wtf?

Favorite color(s)?-- blue, purple, black and white. and grey.

Favorite food(s)?-- ice cream. I stand my ground.

Favorite drink(s)?-- coffee, vodka, root beer, BLOOD >:)

Favorite song?-- 'I don't love you', by my chemical romance.

Favorite passtime?-- hmm.. well alot of things are fun to me as long as I'm with friends. I don't really have one.

Least favorite passtime?-- I have a few.

Addictions?-- certain people ;-) oh, and most candy..

Smoke?-- (:<

Drink?-- yeah, when theres a reason to.

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?-- uumm... probably my height.. I want to be 2 or 3 inches shorter.

What do you like about yourself?-- heh heh.. maybe my sneakyness.

What do you not like about yourself?-- I'm sorta clumsey and I get into awkward positions alot.

What is something you don't think alot of people know about you?-- theres alot of things people don't know about me. mainly secretive things that I'm not going to name, but if you really want to know, I wear glasses when no ones looking.

Worst phobia?-- drowning, or any form of suffocation or decaputation. (check out my rhyming skillage!)

Dig a little deeper:
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What do you do when listening to music?-- mehh, air drums! .. or if a sister is around I tend to tap on her head or arm.

Last crush?-- mr. 'bad apple' (hahaha)

Current crush?-- *grin*

Whats you're preference of socks?-- the miss-matching kind.

Would you consider yourself a healthy person?-- well I eat apples alot.

Are you an outgoing person?-- yeah, but I get silent and sorta awkward around adults.

Would you go out of your way to make someone feel welcome or less out of place?-- yeah I generally try to do that.. especially if the persons shy or something.

Who was your last kiss?-- someone I shouldn't have kissed.

Worst enemy(s)?-- paranoia and anxiety

Favorite youtube video?-- 'Jizz in my pants'.

Favorite song of the week?-- 'Fall for you', by secondhand serenade. only this one week though.

What is one thing that bugs you about your face?-- that I get dark circles under my eyes if I stay up late.

If you could be anywhere with anyone right now, who and where would it be?-- .... I'd have to say texas or california, with laura, jimi, alisa, marie, other people I can't think of right now,... that's off the top of my head.. :P

If you could have one super-power, what would it be?-- the ability to make anything I want to happen by thought. and if that's not a super-power, it is now. :)

Do you actually like blogging?-- it's fun when i'm in the mood.

Do you believe in love at first sight?-- no, but lust at first sight is more like it.

Describe your kind of guy?-- I can't make up a personality.. or a person for that matter

Do you have 'a song'?-- Yes. 'I don't love you" by my chemical romance. :P

How often do you work out?-- at most 5 times times a month. (guilty silence)

What's the most honest thing you've said about yourself in this quiz?-- probably the workout part.

:)

okayy

2009-01-26T13:09:00.000-08:00

Haven't blogged much. At all. I figured I'd spare everyone the details about what I do everyday, they have their own
school-and-whatever-else to work on. And out. :D

I'm very proud of myself right now. I just finished touching up my blog and I think I'm keeping it this way permamently.
That's right. No more changing stupid and not to mention gay links and blog titles anymore. Seeing as the title is in german, it doesn't bug the hell out of me everytime I see ijavascript:void(0)t or make me want to change it. Besides, I love the fact that no one knows what it means(unless one of you randomly knows german. I wouldn't know:P). Oh, one person does know actually. Oh well. Sssshhhhhh...

I also like my link (thanks ms. flumping), even though it's kinda ballsey. Wooah, bad pun alert. hahaha

I'm super anticipating Laura coming to see me. Right darling? (say right)
She's coming with the market next weekend. Man, whoever did the provisioning was damn good. hehe. I'm still running our weekend plans through my head daily. Picture taking at night and coffee by day. And probably coffee by night. That's what makes a sleepover fun, right? Well maybe only if you're laura and sue. But anyways, I'll write all about it after she leaves and put up as many pictures as I can. I hate waiting for the pictures to upload one by one though. If anyone knows how to put them into a slideshow and upload them like that, I'd much love you forever if you told me.
No pictures this time, I don't have any that would make sense to show.

Okay I think I'm finished with this post.

:)

Cycles

2008-11-28T19:58:00.001-08:00

Well. Friday. Just another school day, with the exception that I went to Brantford this time. About Every Thursday there's this if-you're-a-clown-come-practice-here thing. Its held in a church. Random.....

Anyway, I went there with my family. I was pretty bored for a while until someone introduced me to the unicycle.

Oh, baby.

I had a fu-- flipping good time! Below is my adventures:

I crashed into that guy, you know. |